It will be about love, relationships and also phobias (if I can manage to include it.)
Phobophobia, the title of my post. It is the fear of? Fear of phobias. :)
So I had this formspring request that I do a post or vlog on relationships.
Well well well no doubt those that know me or heard about my past would know that I have a long history of love, relationships and what some people call flings.
I would like to admit that I used to flirt a lot and I didn't take relationships seriously.
But I've matured and learnt the importance and have had the experience of falling in love.
There are many sayings that are related to love. Ranging from teenage love to true love and also things that are related to the conquest of love.
(credits to tumblr sites)
There is also different types of love. Friendship love, teenage boy-girl relationship love, true love, the love for a sport and so on. And also one thing I've learnt to differ is lust vs love.
(credits to tumblr sites again.)
First off, I think that everyone has different definitions of love. But honestly at this age, I do think of marriage, I do think of finding that right one. No doubt deep inside I'd doubt that I'll be able to find him.
For me, love isn't feeling those butterflies in the stomach when he approaches me. Love isn't just hugs and kisses. Love is when I'm able to keep looking at him and falling in love with him over and over again. I'll never get sick of him, his face or his presence. Love is when he doesn't mean the world, but it is when I'm able to give up my whole world for him. Love isn't about sacrifice, love is about giving and taking, love is about knowing the smallest details and the largest flaws and still accepting them. Love is when I'm the most comfortable with him, i don't worry about being without make up, I don't worry about being fat, short, too thin, too ugly. Love is when I know he loves me the way I am. No doubt this part sounds cliche, but to me, love is when he calls me beautiful instead of hot/ pretty. Love is when the butterflies may stop flying in my stomach but you never stop smiling every time I see him.
And there is a large difference between love vs lust. As a girl, of course I would've lusted or at least liked a guy's body. I'm not a hardcore muscular dude kinda girl. But of course, not madly in love with those that has a 'family pack'. Lust is when it is the exterior I look at. Just the body or the face. I've had eye candies that has pretty faces or the nicest shoulders. Every girl would have this guy that they always look out for just to see their pretty faces. But when it's love, every girl will not only look out for that particular someone, every girl will wish that he was by her side, not just his face she values but rather, his presence, his voice and his hands holding hers.
There is many different kinds of love. I won't go into this much. There is love in a friendship. I do prioritise friendships as #2 after my family, I do value friendships a lot. And I do show my love for a lot of my friends very widely and blatantly. There is also love for hobbies? I love dancing, photography, I love basketball, I love running, I love many things. But this is mainly interests and such. Well, there is true love. And right now, I think I am too young and inexperienced to talk about this. So yea.. We'll skip it. For now :)
Many teenagers at my age would wish for the happily ever afters. We would think of love as having slow walks down the beach holding hands, or getting flowers on valentine's day. We have fantasies of how a guy may woo us. There are many concepts of love. And this is just my opinion. :)
Hope you guys didn't find this post too wordy.
Formspring.me, I'll respond. And sorry to those, I haven't logged in in a week or so. :/
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