I've been trying to run away from reality for a while now cos it hurts everyday right inside of me.
Sometimes I feel like I'm broken or torn.
Honestly for you guys that think I've the perfect life or I'm the happiest girl ever...
I'm not because I'm human too.
People around me sometimes forget that...
And I make mistakes, I fall, I get up again.
I hurt, I cry, I feel pain too.
Perhaps most of you guys might think I am perfectly fine everytime I smile.
It takes a lot of courage for me to do that everyday.
I wake up every morning, grateful that I even get proper rest.
Sometimes it hurts so much, I can't even sleep.
The amount of weight I've lost within this time of pain is almost too startling to tell some of you guys.
I face the mirror, telling myself to believe in God, to believe what He says.
That I'm beautiful.
But it's really difficult.
It hurts inside. My guts, my heart, my soul feels hollow.
Friends tell me I'm scaring them a little, not eating or sleeping right.
They worry that I might turn insane, that I might lose control of this little sanity that is slipping away.
Afraid that I'll be reduced to bones... Almost like a zombie.
Well, I'm okay friends, I'm okay readers.
I'm just hollow inside. Someone's gonna fill me up.
I trust in Him to hold me through this time.
I trust... That He will not let me go.
I trust that He... Knows what I need the most right now.
Take it all away and break me apart.
I'm not going anywhere without you.