I check celebrity blogs almost everyday but constantly forget to surf blogs of those near to my heart.
Indeed, I've learnt more and seen more with their blogs.
Today, I thought back on my January 2012... Actually, many things can happen in a month.
People came and went, some stayed to make this year a lot better.
Despite everything that happened at the end of 2011, I'm walking away from the drama.
Coming along with promises, I'm holding onto hope instead.
I've broken down time & again over the same person. Allowing the person a hold over me.
Heart still beats insanely quick at the mention of his name.
Tears still well up at the sight of his photos.
I've opened up a raw part of me that I've never opened up to anyone else. Allowed him to hold the most vulnerable parts of my soul. But I'm walking away from something that can break me - the promise.
Instead, I love from here. Right here as I am. Different from what he may want,
but the best way I can.
I don't say this much, but this time, I'm sure he's the only one that has that part of me.
Closing things off, I'm not saying I'll shut down (despite trying) I'm just saying I'll be open to whatever life throws at me.
Xo to you, special boy.
Speaking from the bottom of my heart, I thank all my old friends that has stuck by me, relatively new friends that I hope intends to stay and new friends that is curious & accepting towards me. I'm throwing all my love into 2012 in the hope that it will be a better one (then again, who doesn't want that every starting of the year)..
With beautiful love,
glorious food,
and magical moments.
